Then but now!

I could sit and talk about then and now but I couldn't think of it, because thinking of it takes a little part of me back there and why go to a place that had no benefit for me.

I could tell you that I loved once before that I made many mistakes that I was once a kafir but I have no need to think in it, 'The past'.

The past is what it is, the past! and it had/has no benefit for me.

And, although the saying go's 'those that chose to forget the past are condemned to repeating it', 'those' people did not have the secret.

When I look to you I am not looking at our past but rather I am looking to your future, when I look to him I am not looking to his past but I am looking to our future.

The seconds, hours, days, weeks, months, and years change me but nothing makes me want to change more than him...

Allah you are my guide your mercy knows no limits and I find myself in your favour.

You sent for me a guiding light from amongst the shadows, you taught me patience through prayer and I am, as ever grateful.

I asked much from you, and you kept my friends health, my brothers fi deen 3ala siratul mustaqeem. Like many that came before me and for those that came after you sent many lights.

You are blessing me now with the month of Ramadan, my salvage, our redemption. I am living in the 10 days of forgiveness. Rabighfirlee!!!

You know that I seek no malice you know that I only seek peace, inshallah you bless him with that knowledge.

My attempts are futile and are misinterpreted but my intentions are never unseen by you. Al hamdulilah.

My guiding light knows your mercy sub7anallah, embodies mercy.

My guiding light knows your forgiveness, al hamdulilah, embraces forgiveness.

My guiding light knows your greatness, Allahu Akbar, strives for greatness

My guiding light is Great, my mercy from you, as you shower upon me the ability to seek forgiveness.

May my gratitude never find boundaries as then I will be one of the wretched I will become what some have seen of me in that place that has no benefit.

Allahu Akbar, Allahu akram, allahu rabbi! Rabena.