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Misr week 2 or three

WOW!
So much to say for such a little time.

I seemed to have really fallen on my feet here from the 1st day I arrived I met a gurdian Angel who has looked after me.
And allthough it seems as if you nver get something for nothing here sometimes just friendship is a fair price to pay.....If thats all it is!

So we had a heart to heart or a heart to mind, you know the one
"I like you, what do you think about that?"
"hmm well thanks, a bit strange as I've only known you for about a week, but yea im getting that egyptians are the hopeless romantic types. But I dont feel tjhe same way"
"yea I thought that"
and without giving the cliche 'its not you its me' line, (which had its relevance never the less) I mumbled through a head full of cliche's untill I summbled upon an epiphany or a 'self-actualisation' (private joke) .

Al-hamdulilah, we all have our gifts.
Allah blessed me with a srange one.
It IS a gift!
..because it protects me from being hurt,
but it is also a curse.

A curse because the block that has been put on my heart to stop me from being emotionally involved is also keeping me away from alot of nice brothers, brothers that are all perfectly good marriage material.
Allah knows best.
I can try and think of the wisdom of this that its keeping me from being interupted in a crucial point in my life.
But the truth of it is I really dont know why.
Even when I came close to being emotionally involved with someone or being able to see myself in the future with that person. I still got on that plane and came here.

I don't regret it beause it was what I had to do, but I do think about you all the time.

So here I am, two or three weeks into this trip and I have already found some clarity.

Kheir Inshallah
A curse in the fact

Saudi's, the desease of tthe egyptian Summer!

1st day